you know, you’re doing it again. looking at it wrong. it’s not that you want what you had, it’s that you are able to live with out it. we’ve both lost things… things we may never get back, and you’re doing really good getting through it.
for you, being a regular highschool student is a real achievement, an here you are selling yourself short. yeah, the loss hurts. but here you are, overcoming.
i don’t think i could be that strong.
You slip one hand into his and squeeze it, your face twisted into a sad smile.
Your confidence in my bravery is sweet, John. Maybe one day I’ll be as self-confident as that, but for now I think I need to acknowledge the loss just as it stands now.
As it stands, it’s my most defining characteristic, and I need a little longer to come to terms with that before I can view it as I should.
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